Well it has taken me months to sit down at the computer and also to log back into this blog account. I had always hoped that this blog was going to be a short lived affair. One that I thought would have been of no use to anyone.
20 plus months down the track with Stage 4 Bowel cancer and having treatment. I realise that maybe, I might have some knowledge that might help others.
This post may be short or long. As I have so much to talk about. I am not even sure if anyone still follows this blog anymore.
The reasons why I stopped blogging.
- I thought it would be short lived
- Can’t work out how to log on from my phone, so I can upload photos.
- I am boring.
- Friends that I have known who blog have passed away.
Why have I started blogging again.
- Stage 4 cancer is scary. No matter what type of cancer. Every little bit of information is seeked when we are facing/living with this cancer.
- I am coming to the end of current treatment and I should share my journey.
- I am going to be somewhat in a weird head space after treatment finishes. The time between stopping treatment and just waiting to see if the cancer comes back.
- And I am pretty dam amazing, well with the help of my amazing Oncologist Dr PC. I am still here and I have been in remission now for over 12 months.
- I am currently going through a grueling brutal six weeks of 24/7 chemo and radiation daily. My Normal friends do not understand what we go through to fight this cancer. So if I can help others along the journey and give hope that we can thrive with Stage 4 cancer.
So this is where I am at, at this very moment.
Late last year and early 2017, I felt like I was losing a lot of my Stage 4 friends. It was a reminder of what my outcome could be. It takes every strength to not give up hope.
Dr PC also encouraged me to blog. There are so many of us Stage 4’s out in the big cyber land. Some the journey is too painful to share. Some need hope and some just get on with life and not want to revisit.
I was floating between getting on with treatment and hoping that there would come a day that I would be told. In a positive way, that my treatment is ending, with a date because I am still in remission.
That day is finally coming 19th May, 2017.
Not bad for someone who was told she would be on chemo for the term of my life.
While I do not think I have a death sentence anymore and my days seem less filled with dread of having Stage 4 cancer. I do still feel right at this moment I have hope but I have a life sentence. It is just lurking, waiting to come back and hit me the moment, I finally let my grip go long enough to start living my new normal life.
I promise I will post again and fill you in with my treatment details and how life in general is now going for me.
Never give up hope.